[ He twists his hands before continuing: ]

It wasn't until the ship that someone saw through it for the first time - Or maybe he didn't. But it was the first time someone said they wanted to know me for me even if it took a while to figure it out and -


I know he didn't have that even if it wasn't his parents fault. Billy, I mean, because he chose to give up anything else he might have been to protect them. And I don't think I did either -

[ a beat. ] Sorry.

This is just a really long-winded way of saying... I know. And I'm trying, I promise.